Hungry

hungry I come to You
for I know You satisfy
I am empty
but I know Your love does not run dry
and I wait
and I wait
so I wait for You
so I wait for You

chorus
I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

broken I run to You
for Your arms are open wide
I am weary but I know Your touch restores my life
so I'll wait for You
so I'll wait for You

I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for
Oh, I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

and I wait for you
and I wait for you
and I wait for you
and I wait

I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for
Oh, I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus, You're all this heart is living for

hungry I come to you,
for I know You satisfy

My prayer.....

Psalm 69:29
"I am suffering and in pain.
Rescue me, O God, by your saving power"

Psalm 86:1-2
"Bend down, O LORD, and hear my prayer;
answer me, for I need your help.
Protect me, for I am devoted to You.
Save me, for I serve you and trust you.
You are my God"

A thorn in the flesh....

So the past month or so has been really rough on me. I dont know if its just my luck or what, but its been a painful month. Where to start. Ah yes, back/kidney troubles. So I dont know what is up with that, but it sucked. Then last friday I was all excited because I was off for a whole week from school and I was going to be going to passion later that next week. Well friday night I got really sick...at first I thought it was food poisening, but it turned out to be the Stomach flu. So for the next 3 days I proceeded to live in the bathroom and in my bed. It royally sucked. I dont think ive ever been that sick ever in my life. I wouldnt even wish that bug on my worst of enemies. I dont even know if id like satan to have it, thats how bad it was. Ok so I finally got over that, oh and if your looking to loose 15 lbs really fast, stomach flu is the way to go! So by then it was Thursday and I left for Passion and had an amazing time! Ok so I get back from that Sunday night, and all of a sudden...one of my teeth starts going ballistick on me, hurting like all get out. So the next day I go and visit the dentist....and they perscribed me all these anti-biotics and pain medicine. And now it doesnt look like I will be working off season at Caswell (*tear*) because I have to be home for a couple of root canals and junk. Ugh. Which brings us to today. Ive been up since 4 am because of tooth pain, and then packing and then heading back up to school this morning so I could be back in class at 7:45 am. So my tooth is geting better pain wise I guess, but now I have swelling. Ugh it never ends

So with all this I cant help but think about Paul and his "thorn in the flesh." Maybe God is trying to tell me something. I mean granted he's really been humbling me lately and showing me how small and inadiquite I really am, but sheeesh!!! But im still truckin' though. I may be in massive amounts of pain at times, but I know God has got me taken care of. Its hard at times and I want to throw up my hands and just give God a puzzling look, but I know in the end everything will be ok and He's got a plan for everything. Oh and I was just informed that this week I have a sermon outline due. Now this isnt just coming up with a passage of scripture, geting a main idea and 3 subpoints out of it. No, this is the whole shabang. Like I basically have to type out every word I am going to say, like I was going to get up and preach. So Im definatley stressed over that. And I know that I said I was going to tell you how passion went and all that good stuff, but it looks like it will have to wait my friends. But I can go ahead and tell you that Im probably going to do my sermon on Philippians 3:4-14. So when I get that done I will probably post it up on here. Anyways keep me in your prayers and Ill keep you posted!

A sign of things to come

Well I thought I would never see the day that I would be sucked into the whole "blog" world. But the more I think about it, the more I realize how great of a thing it is. I find myself thinking about a number of things and God has really been laying a lot on my heart lately, and I thought this might be a great way to sort it all out and just pour out my hear and mind. So anyways, here it goes...

"God calls us as we are, but not to stay as we are..." Oh how those words have impacted my life and have been coming true in my life lately. Ive really been reading a lot and just filling my head with as much stuff as I can. I guess you can call it a hunger for God, but the more I love God, the more I want to know about God and what and why he has called me to do. The theme lately that God has really been showing me is His vastness and glory and power in everything. How BIG He is and how small I am. I mean I dont know if you've looked at me lately, but by the world's standards, Im a rather large fellow. And for anything to make me feel small is quite incredible. But this smallness, or even shrinking feeling is unlike any ive ever felt. Its a good shrinking feeling. And I think that as a Christian, everyone should have this feeling. Louie Giglio has a way with explaining the glory of God in the Universe and the human body. Ive just got done reading through his book entitled "I am not, but I know I AM." If you havent heard of Louie Giglio, look him up. If you havent read that book, go out and get it, trust me, you will not be disappointed.

But anyways that book is where I got the title for this blog. In it, Louie talks about how in Exodus when God talks to Moses through the burning bush and He tells moses to tell his people what He just told him, Moses asks "well who should I tell my people who sent me?" And God says "tell them, I AM sent you." So hopefully the book title makes a little more sense now. But in the rest of the book, Louie just really pounds on the fact that we are just a blip on the radar, a vapor in thin air, a small supporting role in such a huge story. We have a choice; we can choose to have a starring role in our own short play, or we can take a smaller supporting role in the huge story that God is making right now. I dont know about you, but id rather take the small supporting role of a story bigger and longer than I can imagine, than taking the leading role in my own little play/movie that I call my life. You see sin has such a way of decieving us all. What it does is it puffs our ownselves up, and it shrinks God down. But we have to right size ourselves and God before we can ever even start to begin to understand anything about God or the bible or theology or God's will for your life. So here lately, God's really been putting everything back into the right perspective; into the way and size things really are. And its been the most humbling and amazing experience ever. Ive learned more in the past 4 months than I have in the past 4 years, all because ive realized that my name is not Chris Pressley, or atleast it shouldnt be. Because really if you think about it, our names are something unique about us; something special. But really to put it in the right perspective, my name should be i am not. Because really, i am not. As much as I try and want to be, i am not. Realizing this simple fact that i am not, but He is I AM, realizing how inadiquite I really am, and how much I cant do things on my own, has spoken volumes to me.

i am not, but i know I AM

I know im probably not making a whole lot of sense, but hopefully you understand somewhat of where Im coming from. Anyways, to wrap things up, I just got back from Passion and oh man, it was absolutely amazing!!! It was definately something that I needed. I get so used to leading worship and get caught up in worship mode, that sometimes I forget to just step out and get away for myself and just truley worship. I mean dont get me wrong, I still worship when Im leading worship, but when you step back and away from just to do it yourself and someone else is leading it, its a totally different experience. But it was well needed. But anyways, ill save the details of passion for my next post (whenever that will be haha). Anyways If you've read down this far, God bless you. You are a determined and very caring person. So thank you! Anyways, until next time....